Moriel's Musings

I’ve been quiet the past few months. At the beginning of April I moved across the continent to a new city and a new state and ever since then, my life has been in turmoil. It all started, though, back in February when, for whatever reason, I had a hypomanic episode for the first time…

Today in “things that flew over my head at the time” I suddenly remembered something from high school. It was probably the first time I went to the Renaissance festival and at one point I was sitting in a tavern with a female friend and some guy she had met. He was hitting on her…

A common refrain that trans people often hear from parents when they come out is “but there were no signs!” Somehow, many of our parents think that as children we never showed any signs of being trans. To give you an example of what I mean, consider my own case. My egg fully cracked when…

Saw this a few minutes ago and felt it so deeply that I just had to share it. I’m not just trans, I’m also autistic and this statement is so true.

Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of healing, or at least trying to heal. I have found that even at my age and so many years after transition that I still have lingering trauma from when I was a child, trauma around my gender not being recognized or accepted. If you’d asked me as a…

Like a fair number of trans women I know, I have stuffed animals. I actually have a whole shelf full that I’ve accumulated over the years while telling myself that I’m not really into stuffed animals. I used to tell myself “oh, this one is just a souvenir from a trip” and “that one was…

Here are 3 toys I wanted as a kid but couldn’t have because of my perceived gender. The Betty Crocker Easy Bake Oven, the Barbie Fashion Face, and a Raggedy Ann doll. These days I do have Raggedy Ann finally. What did you want as a child that you couldn’t have?

Today was the funeral for Pope Francis and something interesting happened. The honor guard who accompanied his casket included transgender people! Also immigrants, sex workers, poor people, prisoners, and other marginalized people. It seems this was Franics’ expressed desire for his funeral. You can read about this in the official announcement by the Vatican. Pope…

Transgender people have been the target of an ongoing witch hunt for several years now, with laws increasingly stripping us of basic rights like the ability to use a public restroom, play sports, or even access health care, but now another group is being targeted. The new Secretary of Health and Human Services in the…

I am starting to read the book Sacred Gender by Ariana Serpentine. It is a book about trans and non-binary spirituality. At the end of the first chapter there is an exercise in which one is asked to describe one’s gender without using words like male/female, man/woman, masculine/feminine, etc. Here is my response. My gender…