Moriel's Musings

First they came for the immigrants and I said nothing, for I was not an immigrant. Then they came for the transgenders and I said nothing, for I was not transgender. Am I the modern Niemoller?

Content warning: this post discusses a suicide attempt. If you are feeling suicidal, please talk to someone about it. If you have no one else to talk to, there are telephone hotlines you can call to talk to a trained volunteer who can help you through this. In the USA and Canada you can call…

Content warning: this post discusses a suicide attempt. If you are feeling suicidal, please talk to someone about it. If you have no one else to talk to, there are telephone hotlines you can call to talk to a trained volunteer who can help you through this. In the USA and Canada you can call…

Last night I went to see a show. There were only about 40 people there, but it is a small venue so it felt crowded and the conversation of the people there was quite loud in that space. I had meant to take an Ativan beforehand, because of my social anxiety, but I forgot, and…

I’m reading an article (Slivers) from @Impossible_PhD on the Stained Glass Woman site, and I just came across this: “If you’re lucky, the result of this is burnout, which is a combined flop/flood collapse. If you’re unlucky, it becomes cPTSD. Often, though? It becomes both.” And suddenly a light went on in my head. Two…

For months now (four months, even) I have been going to public social events around town trying to meet new people in the communities I’m part of. I just want to get to know people and have them get to know me so that I can expand my circle of friends. However, I’ve been running…

In fourth grade one day, I and another girl (remember, this was when people still thought I was a boy) were sitting next to each other while most of the other students were doing something else, and we had nothing interesting to do. Now the desks we used had wooden tops and at the top…

Seems like lately everything is conspiring against me to strip me of any and all masks, coping skills, and ability to avoid my problems. All the pain and confusion and anxiety at my core has been laid bare for me and everyone else to see. I don’t like people seeing the real me because it’s…

A major period of my life has come to an end. I just moved. I’m living alone again for the first time in years. I’ve met a lot of new people online, some of whom are becoming good friends. I’ve also become interested in BDSM and am discovering that I’m not quite as asexual as…

I’ve been quiet the past few months. At the beginning of April I moved across the continent to a new city and a new state and ever since then, my life has been in turmoil. It all started, though, back in February when, for whatever reason, I had a hypomanic episode for the first time…