Moriel's Musings

I transitioned in the 1990’s. Despite there being no legal protections back then, and no gender affirming care for minors, in many ways things were easier at that time because most of society just didn’t even know we existed, and when they would find out, for the most part they didn’t care. Today, though, there…

Last time I wrote about how I came to finally understand that I wanted to be a girl, and I’ve previously written about how I learned not to tell people about my attraction to girl things. Now we come to a really pivotal moment when I was finally exposed. One evening late in my 8th…

Goddess, I thank you for making me female. You chose a dark path for me to follow in order to become the woman I was meant to be, but the struggles along that path have made me stronger and the destination it led me to is filled with light and bliss. I am your grateful…

Content warning: there is discussion of a suicide attempt at the end of this article. Before moving on to my pre-teen years, there are a couple of more things I should mention from my early childhood. I lived with my mother and my older sister, D. Whenever we would all go out shopping, I would…

Someone in a trans support Discord server commented how sad it was to see so many people leaving the community. She felt like she was losing her friends. This is what I wrote in response. It was like that in the 90’s too. It’s just the nature of the trans community. It is fleeting. People…

A small happy memory for me. When I was about 5 I had very long, thick eyelashes framing bright blue eyes. One day when I was visiting her, my grandmother commented on them and told me “Your eyes are too pretty for a boy. You should have been a girl!” She was more right than…

Back when I was transitioning people would ask me how I knew I was trans. That’s the kind of question that all trans people get asked. For me it was difficult to answer, and it still is something that I think about from time to time. Lately I’ve been thinking about it a lot because…

Hi! Call me Moriel. That’s not my real name, but I’ve decided recently that as dangerous as the United States is becoming for trans people that I should try to avoid using my real name online when discussing transgender issues. That’s the sad reality of the US today. That said, I will be spending pretty…

Hi! I’m Moriel and I’m a trans lesbian trying to survive in the new, dangerous climate of the United States. I’ll be avoiding saying things that would identify me, but I will nonetheless be using this blog to share my own thoughts on being trans and making it through these difficult times. I hope I…